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Born Again: 37 Years of Darkness Among the Amish

 John A Miller Tells His Story

 

I was born in western Pennsylvania in the small village of Atlantic. Ours was a typical Amish family. We attended church services every other Sunday, which was normal for most Amish. Some of my earliest memories include hearing my grandfather preaching from Romans 8:15, “For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear, but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.” Other scriptures I heard were John 3:7, “Ye must be born again,” and John 14:6, “I am the Way, the Truth and the Life: no man cometh unto the Father but by Me.”

     

The Hypocrite

The Amish often preach accountability and the need of repentance. Unfortunately, the concept is to try harder to subdue sin. As a result, I grew up feeling condemned for I knew I was a sinner. I could not understand why everyone else could be right with God as a result of what they were doing, and here I was, a hypocrite, just pretending to be good.

     

Breaking the Rules with My Friend

When I was 16 years old I started what the Amish call, “Rumschpringah.” Usually this consists of spending time with a group of your peers and being involved in their activities. My friends and I did many things against the church rules and against our parents’ wishes. Living in sin made my life miserable and many a Monday morning saw a depressed young man wondering why life is so empty.

 

Hoping to do Better - Submitting to the Rules

In the spring of 1986 I made a commitment to God and the church to give up my sinful life and to live within the ordinances of the church. It is a solemn occasion on the one day of the year when young men and women can join an instruction class mandatory for church membership. They are expected to conform to the rules of the church and to shun the ways of the world in dress and manner of life. Most Amish have very strict rules regarding appearance and any deviation from these rules is enough to keep one from being accepted in fellowship.

     

One of the hardest things for some among the Amish is to submit themselves to the church and obey the ordinances. Because of the turmoil and conflict involved in doing this, many think that when they are finally baptized, this means they are now born again.

     

Because the way of salvation is linked to church membership, there is pressure applied in different ways to compel young folks in their late teens to become members. A generally held belief among the Amish is that if you are old enough to be in the church and do not join, there is a good chance that you are going to hell.

     

Baptized but Empty

After 3 months of instruction, everyone in our class was baptized by pouring a little water over our heads. We were told that now we are clean and new, ready for heaven. I remember having expectations of being happy and sinless, of being filled with joy. All I felt was emptiness. I understood that nothing had changed and I did not have peace with God. I was sure it was because I had not put forth enough effort and God was not about to reward a slacker like myself who was still a sinner at heart.

     

Guilty Conscience

Even after we were church members, my friends and I would do some of the things we had done formerly, like going to bars and attending drinking parties. This brought the added problem of hiding our activities from older church members. Although we seldom got caught, our guilty consciences would move us to confess our sins before the whole congregation. This supposedly brought forgiveness and cleansing from God.

      

Becoming the Family Man

At an Amish wedding I met Mary Delagrange, a nice, quiet young lady who ended up becoming my wife. We were married on February 4, 1988. A few short years later found me the father of a growing line of boys. Mary and I wanted something better for our children than the drinking, smoking lifestyle of the Amish youth of our area. In the fall of 1999 we moved our family to Potter County in northern Pennsylvania. This was a young Amish community with only 9 other families at the time we moved in. We were hoping that because of the slightly different rules and so few other families, our children would not be subjected to the evil influences so common among the Amish.

Terrified Over the Possibility of Eternal Damnation

The years were swiftly passing by; our boys were growing up, yet one thing had not changed. I still recognized my guilt before God and wondered if there was a way for me to be right with God. If there was, I certainly had not found it. Thinking about hell, eternity and the lake of fire terrified me. I knew Christ was coming back and in my mind would try to devise a way to hide on the Day of Judgment.

   

The Lady Who Talked About the Lord Jesus Christ

Most of our children were born at home, and soon after moving to Ulysses we started looking for a midwife. Friends of ours introduced us to Barbara Hawley, a kind and gentle lady. However, it was not long before I discovered she liked to talk about spiritual matters, and about the Lord Jesus Christ. This made me uncomfortable for several reasons. I was afraid she would ask me what we believed, and why. I was not sure of either, except if we are good enough we get to go to heaven, although I knew I was not good.

      

“They had something I did not possess.”

Soon after our son Daniel was born, the Hawleys opened a natural health clinic a short distance from our house. As I got to know the family better, I recognized they had something I did not possess - peace with God. Whether real or imagined, I did not know, but it was more than I could ever claim. They would talk to me about Jesus, and how we needed to be saved. As Amish, we did not believe a person could know they were saved, we could only hope to make it into heaven. I was very hesitant to talk about this, for we were taught to stay away from people who said they were saved. One day I asked Art, Barb’s husband, whether being born again and being saved were the same. He assured me it was, which was a help to me, for the Amish would preach that we needed to be born again.

      

Listening to Ruth Hanna Singing Hymns

Their daughter, Rebekah, would give us rides to town or wherever we needed to go. She had CD’s recorded by Ruth Hanna (click on name for more info) and would often play them for us. Listening to Ruth Hanna’s songs about the Lord Jesus and salvation through faith in Him were compelling and thought provoking. Rebekah would take opportunity to witness to us about Jesus and justification by faith alone. I did not agree with her but could not be certain she was wrong, for my Amish faith had not brought peace with God.

     

My First English Bible

I started doing some part time work at the clinic for the Hawleys and Barbara would often bring my attention to scripture verses hanging on the walls of the clinic. Ephesians 2:8-9, and Romans 5:1 were two in particular that I simply could not understand. Being right with God on the basis of what someone else [the Lord Jesus] had done was a concept foreign to my upbringing. Barbara gave me a KJV New Testament, something I had never owned in my life. We were taught to read only German Bibles, as the “English” version did not convey the same meaning.

 

The Real Eye Opener

Reading my new Bible was a real eye opener for me. Art suggested I read in the gospel of John, which I did, but I found Romans fascinating. A light bulb went on when I read Romans 9:31, 32, and 33. It was easy to make the comparison between Israel and the Amish. It was made clear to me why I had no peace with God by keeping the church rules. My condemnation before a Holy God was made obvious. I read verses like Romans 6:23, “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” I knew, without a doubt, what my wages were. The last part of the verse eluded me. I still thought that somehow, I had to pay God for my sins.

 

Facing Hell Forever

Finally it became evident to me, because of my sins, I would not be in heaven and I was going to be in hell forever. I rebelled against God for creating me just to suffer eternal torment. I remember doing my chores around the farm and thinking these dumb animals have it nice, for upon death they will simply cease to exist. I, on the other hand, would be cast into hell and suffer for all eternity.

       

Those were dark, awful days, but I thank my God for them. He was bringing me to true repentance and to the provision of His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ.

     

The Day Things Changed

One fine September evening in the year 2005 I was helping Barb put down the finish on a porch floor at the clinic. We were discussing spiritual issues again, which by now were not distasteful to me. She was asking me what I thought would get me to heaven and I answered as I had always believed: that you have to confess all your sins or God will not let you into heaven. This prompted her to ask me, “John, if you committed a sin and before you could ask forgiveness Christ came back, would you go to hell?”

 

All those months of struggling, of pleading with God, of knowing I was condemned, and those Bible verses which told of righteousness through faith in Christ Jesus came back to me. Almost without thinking I said, “No! I would go to heaven!”

 

Immediately I knew something had changed. I sat back on my heels for a moment and tried to figure it out. The thought that perhaps I had blasphemed God or the Holy Spirit even crossed my mind. Yet somehow, I knew it could not be true. I felt something different; something new that I had never experienced before. Without analyzing what had happened, I felt a peace with my Creator. I was saved, although it was a long time before I realized it was simply trust in what Jesus had done that had changed my life forever that night. And though I did not know I was saved, I no longer felt condemned before God.

 

I Know for Sure I Will be in Heaven

It was not long before I was telling others among the Amish that we could be sure of being in heaven because it is not what we do, but of what Jesus did for us.

      

Amazing Grace and Mercy

Looking back, I marvel once again at God’s amazing grace and mercy. I was 37 years old when He reached down into my darkened world and set me free. The peace that I now have with God through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is worth more to me than anything the world or any religion has to offer. To know that I shall be in heaven because God so loved the world that He gave His only Son to die on the cross for sinful, undeserving mankind [ me !] still moves my eyes to tears.

     

What love! What boundless grace is given to men! All are sinners because of Adam, but God has made a way for us to be right with Him. To think that some will never accept justification by faith in Christ alone, but depend on something they have done is the tragedy of the universe.

     

What About You? Are You Ready?

Oh sinner, make haste! Confess your helplessness before the Almighty God. Accept the Savior’s finished work on the cross for your sins while there is yet time. Do not tarry. You do not know if you can repent tomorrow. Your opportunity for salvation has a most uncertain element: time, which is fleeing swiftly even as we ponder. Make things right with your Creator now. He will give you new life; you will be a son of God. You will have a peace that will pass all understanding. Jesus said, “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life: no man comes unto the Father except by Me.” Trust Jesus for your salvation and you too, will be sure of spending eternity in heaven.                  

 

To email John Miller click here.

 

Comments

george david
# george david
Tuesday, May 18, 2010 1:48 AM
Dear Bro John in Christ!
greetings to you in His name
Nice to hear from you about how
you were born again. may God bless you
and use you as great channel of blessing
for many people of this world.
I am an Indian working in Israel.
I'm also saved by God
bye bye
javed Masih ch
Saturday, June 05, 2010 6:04 PM
u r great who preaching the message of eternal, God bless u. plz cive us more detail about ur work. thanks . javed
Raymond Ricard
# Raymond Ricard
Tuesday, June 08, 2010 1:13 PM
Greeting in our Lord Jesus precious name,

Just read this testimony of this Amish save by grace, I am always thankful and rejoicing as the angels do when a precious soul come to the Saviour.

May the Lord use him among the Amish community for His glory.

From one of His child, Raymond Ricard
Judy Minnett
Wednesday, July 14, 2010 6:26 AM
Hi John,
I was so thrilled to read your salvation story. Amish have moved into our area, and we have become close to them, just like the Christians in your story. We've talked about the Lord Jesus with them, and at first with thought they were believers, but with time we find they only 'hope' to be in heaven. Finding your story, is a BIG encouragement to us, as we deal with the Amish several times a day. We have given them the use of our shop for their telephone and frequently give them rides, we've had them into our homes for meals and we've been to their homes as well. We've been with them in the hospital when a new baby arrived - we we very involved in their lives. Your testimony gave me so much joy, to feel that these people (5 families) are a mission field just across the highway. I would love to hear from you. I would love to hear how your family and neighbors accepted your deliverance from 'slavery'.
T. McQ
# T. McQ
Sunday, July 25, 2010 11:45 AM
Welcome to the family John. I love to hear how the Lord takes all of us, regardless of our various backgrounds and denominational upbringings, and draws us unto himself, teaching us HIS truth through His Word as revealed in the Bible. I was filled with joy upon reading your story. Thanks for sharing.
blessings,
T. McQ
Javed Sahotra
Thursday, March 03, 2011 9:12 AM
Dear bro in CHRIST, ur story is veryspiritual one , you are great because you have the experience of born againe, my family want to connect relationship with your great family, God bless u and ur family, humble javed
Paulette
# Paulette
Thursday, November 10, 2011 7:10 AM
Praise God and welcome to the fold brother! Freedom in Christ!
linda
# linda
Thursday, March 15, 2012 1:03 PM
so happy to read your words john i to am from lancaster cnty pa allthough i am not amish but moved away from there for the same reasons to give my child a more simpler purer way of life god bless u
Brenda
# Brenda
Saturday, November 10, 2012 1:36 AM
Thanks for sharing your story. I pray the Lord gives you favor and mercy for you and your family and all those people you will touch as the Lord uses you.
perry yoder
# perry yoder
Tuesday, December 18, 2012 10:33 PM
I would like to make contact personally with you guys and could you please shoot me an email at busyyoders@gmail.com I have relatives in Ulysses.hanks Perry Yoder
Rich
# Rich
Sunday, February 17, 2013 9:22 AM
Hi, John, I appreciate your sharing the story of your conversion and new birth in Christ--and also the pictures of your lovely family. I have a number of Amish friends in several states, and the thing that surprised me as I got to know them and their communites is that their understanding of the New Birth varies considerably. I know a number who have grown up like you in Atlantic who have only the hope of salvation. Also, I know many Amish who have sensed God's love and salvation and know that they are right with the Lord. I trust--and think--that you know that there are many born-again Amish, and I hope that those who read your testimony do not assume that most Amish have had the same experience as yours. Also, I hope that with your new-found assurance that you will minister to those who need to know of their standing with the Lord with the same humility that Art, Barb, and Rebecca ministered to you. Sadly, I have met many too many former-Amish who seem to loathe anything Amish or anyone associated with them. Compassion always works better than arrogance. Aus liebe. Rich
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